upset disappointment,what else!?

I am really bloody upset today.I really try to get you out of my mind today but it was so bloody damn hard.The more I wanted you out the more you came the more you made me feel so unhappy I just felt like going home hide under the blanket and cry cry cry.I don't know what else to do.I seriously don't know.I text you the wrong stuffs....I didn't tell you what I really wanted you to know.I did the wrong things AGAIN.I feel so fucked up right now.I feel so stupid I feel so foolish and I can't really do anything..

Which guys did you think I have been talking to all these while?Your friends?I don't know...I haven't been talking to anyone bout you.I've been keeping mum and just stfu bout all these...but really,I can't seem to stand it anymore...I feel like screaming.I don't know scream to who but just scream for the sake of screaming.

I miss you.You know that?You hardly see me this way right?Well if you read this then you should know how much I miss you and those bloody times we were such bloody good friends.I am happy for you now seeing how happy you are but....sometimes,I am not that happy.I just....I am jealous,yknow?But there is freaking nothing I can do bout it.

I should go sleep early,wish tomorrow would be better and....yes,that's bout it.